This past week I was going through excruciating pains from my monthly. I’ve been hemorrhaging like there’s no tomorrow, inflammation galore, and getting massive dizzy spells that force me to use my paid time off.
This was cause enough for me to make an appointment with my old doc; the one who performed my first Laparoscopy. My hubby went with me to the appointment and got to learn all about what endometriosis is doing to me. The doc even showed him the pictures taken during my first surgery. It was like Endo 101 and he finally understands what’s happening which made me happy.
After filling her in on everything that we’ve tried and done she said it was time for a sonogram. I was scared about this part. I didn’t want to know if any more damage has occurred. It was the most painful sonogram I’ve ever had. Every movement made to search for cyst caused me to strain and clench my teeth. I’m sure still being on my monthly didn’t help.
She turned the monitor and pointed to a large space. It looked like someone dropped a piece of fried egg into my body; it was a large cyst…
The phantom pain I had always mentally pushed aside was actually a growing cyst. I had thought it was a result of the removed cyst that was there before. I felt like an idiot for ignoring the pangs and pings my side had always sent out occasionally. I seriously need to heed any pain my body lets out.
The most unfortunate part of this discovery is that this fek’n cyst had smothered my left ovary and eggs to death. I will need surgery to remove both. All I have left is the right ovary which is somehow still fighting the good fight to exist amidst the barrage of cysts.
The doc won’t advise us on what we should do next until we get my blood test results back. I’m not sure what she’s testing for but they took three vials. I was a bit woozy after they took my blood so I didn’t really hear much of what they were saying.
The options we do know of though is that we could take out the cyst and ovary remains then continue to try naturally or we can pursue IVF. She believes that the left ovary may have been part of the problem since the cyst returned specifically in that area. If there are any other options she has yet to inform us.
I feel so bad for my ovary though. It was saved before in the first surgery but due to my ignoring its pains, I had allowed it to die off. All those eggs…gone…